My first pregnancy did not go how I planned.
In my head, it was going to be easy; I was going to be one of those women who glowed and bounced their way through, working out regularly and eating my normal, "healthy", diet.
(sums up my diet pretty well: saltines and fizzy water)
It sucked. I was sick and it honestly rocked me to my core. It was a hard period for me; not only were my expectations completely ruined but I felt like ass every day... all. day. long. And it took well into the 2nd trimester to feel better.
So, when I found out I was pregnant this time around, I crossed my fingers hoping for an easier pregnancy but knowing that it was probable that I'd feel wretched again. I sat down and made a list of goals for this pregnancy.
That list looked like this:
1. Go with the flow.
That was it. That was all I hoped for; that no matter how bad or great I felt, I would at least TRY (strong emphasis on this word) to take it all in stride.
And then 5 weeks hit and I started feeling all the things but I remembered my list and I sucked it up. "It's so temporary" I thought. And then 8 weeks hit and I started puking, spinning, and stopped liking the way anything tasted... or smelled.
(around 8 weeks meeting Ms. January Harshe)
I looked at my list. And then I laughed out loud. When you're in the midst of pukey-goodness morning sickness, it's really hard to go with the flow. Especially when you are unable to keep food down or smell any smells.
The list went away and I let go of all expectation. On the days I felt good, we walked, I ate what sounded good, and we were as mobile as possible... sometimes I even did yoga. On days where I felt wretched, we usually still walked because of our high-energy dog (unless I was confined to the bathroom region), we watched more television than I like, and ate take out.
We ate a lot of takeout.
And then, unlike my 1st pregnancy, around week 12 I stopped feeling SO horrible. My appetite came back and I felt like a real person.
Below are a series of questions I'll be answering as I work through my pregnancy. Because I felt so bad, I didn't keep great records and I wish I had. So, this is as much for me as it is for you!
(10 weeks and pretty sick, but still smiling)
Weight gain: Not sure and not really caring at this point. I have clothes that fit and I can finally keep food down so that's the most important.
Favorite Maternity Wear: Gap. I would love some advice on good brands!
Workouts: Mostly yoga and walking. I was able to eek out a couple of lifting sessions prior to the more intense nausea and vomitting.
Cravings: Caesar salad and Mexican food until about 8 weeks
Aversions: Almost everything from weeks 8-12, including Caesar salad and Mexican.
Favorite moment so far: Finding out, telling my family, and telling my class I was pregnant- they lost it! They were so excited!
Symptoms: Lots of vomit
Emotions: A lot more crying this time around, more worries, more anxiety and maybe a bit more fear. Mostly worried about my relationship with Ethan and managing two kids.
Miss anything?: Sushi
Mood: Anxious about my studio opening while pregnant. Weepy... in general.
Looking forward to: Labor. Not kidding.
Labor signs: None.
(13 weeks and happy to have all-day sickness behind me)
I'll be keeping up with these posts more regularly starting around 20 weeks, when I feel like it gets more exciting! Until then sign up for my newsletter here to keep up with my musings on motherhood, fitness, nutrition, and mindset.